That answer isn’t easy for me. I am in the sense, that it was a cathartic and exercise in a discipline of drawing and “art”. But I am obviously aware of the nature and the imagery. Its foolish of me, not to realize I might have a younger and more impressionable audience. And for that I do apologize.
Honestly, I am most of all sorry to the offended. Because not unlike the offended, I myself wasn’t exactly sure how I felt about them myself. For the longest time, I kept my artwork to myself. I didn’t think they were something to be proud of.
But I am proud of my artwork, because I will tell you what, for a few hours in my life of ordinary routine and monotony. I was able to do something, and that was/is art. Do you have any idea how cathartic pain relieving it was for me, to have an outlet like art. I wasn’t a gunman at a school, or a public event or outing. I was taking my aggressions and my hate and presenting it on paper.
People have this insatiable ability to want to exert their mindset and motives, into answering simple yes or no questions. And its exactly the kind of mindset of Abdul El Sayeed and countless other modern day politicians and people in power.
We are in a day in age now, where our youth are being funneled into a dangerous and alienating, mind altering environments. We have institutions and colleges all around that are out to do one thing, and its control. I love freedom, I like having the ability to do what I want. But its a dangerous, dichotomy because that same freedom is available to another person who might be less than interested in human life.
A lot of these uptight people, have just not been exposed to this kind of thing. Or aren’t willing to be honest with themselves, or with others considering their lifeline of entertainment consumed.
This is one of those conservative and satanic manipulations that has always disturbed and bothered me. They do nothing to try and understand and speak about the subject, but only have interest in demonizing and debilitating the individual. Its downright crippling, the higher than mighty attitudes people get these days. There is a right and wrong, no question. And in the area of my art, it is not edifying or of any value in the interest of Christianity. And its a sin, that I have to deal with. I cannot undo my artwork, I cannot think them away, or pretend like I never drew these images. But I can accept the fact, that they existed at one point, and now, I honestly do not know the whereabouts of those art journals. They could very well be burned, or trash somewhere, and now who knows.
I don’t do good of keeping my things. I am not at all concerned about physical objects, as I am about my life, and about the lives of others, especially my family.
