duty

When something is done out of desire and no required outcome. You will find yourself fulfilled with the process and not the goal. The only achievable goal is the required act of doing.

The Screwtape Letters

I finally got around to finishing the Screwtape Letters by CS Lewis, here is a summarized collection of quotes, and some interjected thoughts from myself. The book itself details the relationship of a demon and a father demon (satan?), tormenting a human subject. Throughout you can’t help but finding yourself relating to the tactics of the devil to overcome man. The ultimate destination for any human subject is death. And I think the greatest fear of hell, at least for myself is an absence from God. Complete isolation.
“The first and most obvious advantage is that you thus induce him to enthrone at the center of his life a good, solid resounding lie” -cs lewis
(In my case inferiority. Jealousy, hatred, disgust, envy, pride etc.)
“The claim to equality, outside of the strictly political field, is made only by those who feel themselves to be in some way inferior.” -cs lewis
“What it expresses is precisely the itching, smarting, writhing awareness of an inferiority which the patient refuses to accept. And therefore resents. Yes, and therefore resents every kind of superiority in others; denigrates it: wishes its annihilation. Presently he suspects every mere difference of being a claim to to superiority. No one must be different from himself in voice, clothes, manners, recreations, choice of food.” -cs lewis
(I have this resentment towards others who I believe to be inferior to myself, who in regards to economic gain and social affiliation are far superior than myself.)
“Now this useful phenomenon is in itself by no means new. Under the name of Envy it has been know to humans for thousands of years.”
-cs lewis
“Under the influence of this incantation those who are in any or every way inferior can labor more wholeheartedly and successfully¬† than ever before to pull down everyone else to their own level” -cs lewis
I try so hard to meet the expectations of others, and I in myself am unable to achieve the desired goal, because in of myself I can do nothing successfully outside of the grace of God.

manifesto

Release your skull from compromise, believe and receive acceptance from the cosmos. They breed belief, something larger than this earth. Entertain distractions, they confuse your youth. Confront opportunity as a belief that it will change yourself. Develop and become bigger than any opposition. Watch the walls crumble around you. Reject voice you’re bigger than this earth. Enjoyment and pleasure on this planet is momentary and never lasts. Be true to yourself and accept those around that influence your ideas. Live to be a being that will last forever. When you are removed from the husk, carry on and believe.

posthumous repitions

I am not going to live like a human being, and pretend there is god who will compromise according to religious scriptures. Instead I’ll divide and conquer, accept a new vision one that frees from obstacles and lies.

legalize suicide

Psycho paranoia or the ability to absolutely navigate a problem that is unaddressed? I am speaking specifically about the legalization of suicide. Not just suicide for the terminally ill, but suicide for any living breathing human which wishes to cease existence. Why can allow Hollywood to propagate movies like the Hunger Games, the Purge and the Belko Experiment (notably even mayhem). It’s as if we have (sub)consciously expressively portrayed the decaying animal instincts of human beings, allowed it into popular culture. I am not sure when but I can guarantee that overpopulation of the world will become the thesis behind all of this. We are degenerately innate to relate to some kind of prospect of hope, but the only hope is what is inside.

The idea of suicide is morally benign and the church is expressive in disabling it. They are corrupt vultures that would rather watch humans destroy themselves from the inside out, watching a miserable human writhe and twitch before themselves or somebody twists the neck and puts it out of their own misery. Would you watch while a deer lay half dead twitching and bleeding out, before you grab a rock big enough to release it from its pain.

We offer a humane way for somebody to end their life. This will never happen. And reason is money. Not money for the cost of procedure. But the money that is being made from misery. If this indeed happened. There would be empty psychiatric hospitals, psychiatrists, pharmaceuticals etc. etc. There is the moral particle and the greedy apologia.

Let’s ignore the suicidal, the miserable, the leeches and the bottom feeders of society. After all what is the purpose of perfection if there are not those we can snub are noses to.

 Is this an equation of some kind of utopia?

identity, purpose and contradictions

(if this at all sound authoritative, I apologize in advance. These are only ideas that come into my brain, and I want to express them through this blog)

An identity if anything but being a working, breathing, fucking, sleeping and eating creature… just like any other biological specimen is a contradiction to our existence. We have some kind of idea that the media, fashion or whatever else gives us a sense of purpose is important. When we strip away the layers of diatribe prescribed by the television, movies, music, internet we get a false identity. 

I always tried to abandon the popular ideas that our society accepts, only to find myself sad, lonely and confused. But in reality the herd moves instinctively about ideas and lifestyles that match society. They are not actually looking for individuality they are only trying to enjoy the pleasures of life like any other homo-sapiens should. 
The ability to appease the conscience by whatever means necessary is absolutely essential to survival and success in life. To belittle and berate the beliefs of those who live successful and fulfilling lives is a sign of inferiority and displeasure with your own existence. 
This has been a bit wildly described and confusing, though unintentional and a bit contradictory to my first paragraph. My whole intention was to write about the identity crisis in america, particularly in the mental health of human beings. I think it is acceptable to be interested in media, but I also think that the most important regard to identity is the ability to survive. I think identity should be in regards to the animals around us, the ones who instinctively move about and obey nature. It will never be that easy for humans, we have this necessity to please our own species by means of false identity. The more we nurture false identity the more we encourage behavior that contradicts our existence.
In summary, live to succeed and accept the principles that encourage growth. It’s absolute polarity, it makes no sense and I think that is the key-piece to living. We expose we contradict we abandon and expose, circling in a endless confusion. But when we accept and adapt, we begin to find living through confusion is acceptable. Besides all of that, the pleasures of life are more enjoyable.